My throat is sore… my chest is not taking any fucking air in.
I am all unhealthy as much as i can be. There are people who live worse lives than me but are always more healthy than me. I have definitely some problems with me.
I have the greatest mother on Earth and she loves me despite me giving anything to her or not but there is difference between the father and mother that your father will love you conditionally but your mother will love you unconditionally.
I am again at the lowest point of my life where I don’t know where to go. I am an advocate at high court but I don’t earn money from it which bothers me because not earning money at your early forties is necessary.
I have seen lawyers here practicing here for more than ten years and even they are not earning money. Everyone tells me that earning starts from fifth year onwards before that it is all learning.
I don’t care about the truth anymore. I have been fooled by the world and stupid self help writers into thinking that you can do miracles by dreaming and desiring.
There is no formula for success or earning money.
There is no criteria in the world which says that someone will get this because he deserved it. No one deserves it and deserve has nothing to do with anything.
We get according to how much money we have and in which part of the world we live in.
I am in a despair state of mind. I don’t even care what i am writing anymore. See you later